Inside the Busy Mind of a Serial Procrastinator.....
Saturday, September 5, 2015
I recently posted the photo below on Instagram. Admittedly it's not a particularly good photo but I wanted to show the knitting and crocheting projects that I am currently working on. Flitting haphazardly between all three as I go, on a daily basis.
My 'knitocheting' projects as I called them! Good, huh?
The more I looked at that photo, and the more I thought about it, the more I realised that this actually symbolised my whole life.
This photo not only revealed my knitocheting projects, it also allowed a glimpse inside my terribly busy mind.
Not important-busy mind you, more of a busy-busy mind really. A mind that rarely stops running. Sure it's no wonder that insomnia constantly lurks in the background!
I can never seem to do just one thing at a time you see, or complete one task before I move to the next. When I'm knitting or crocheting I'm also watching TV or sitting in the sun; alternating between needles and book. On the rare days that the sun deigns to shine warmly, that is. When I'm writing a blog post I'm also flicking through emails, facebook, twitter etc., or even crushing a candy or ten! Especially if I'm stuck on a sentence, or on the whole damn post. When I'm swimming lengths I cannot possibly do the same stroke, length after length in a monotonous loop, I'm driven to vary it. And when I go for a walk it's like I'm squeezing it in to my day, which I am, and thinking of what's next on my list. Not necessarily jobs to be done, it could even be something nice that's next in line.
I need to live more in the moment. Enjoy what I'm doing, when I'm doing it. Like taking the time to watch the sun filter through the branches as I walk and feel the fresh air tingle my senses. Although it must be said that over the years many a blog post gets written, or a dance routine set, on these walks. In my head that is!
I need some Mindfulness in my life I reckon. And in that vein I downloaded Headspace two days ago..... I've yet to try it out as I moved on to something else and never got back to it. That right there is a perfect example of my hectic brain! That and this rambling post.
I've come to the conclusion that it's not just a busy mind that impacts on my life but a hugely disorganised one. One that repeatedly procrastinates.
I do mean to get things done, really I do. Sometimes I even write them all down on a nice to-do list, and sometimes they even get done. Like this blog post for example, that along with others has been sitting neglected on a shelf in my disorganised mind for some time now. Sometimes I think that it's just getting started that's the issue? You know, stop thinking about it and just do it type of thing?
Sometimes I think I'm just easily bored.
Then I thought, maybe not so disorganised after all? I mean a serial procrastinator with a haphazard brain couldn't possibly organise 120 plus Panto children into groups, choreograph and rehearse them and have them performance-ready to a deadline now could she? I did that for at least five years and then moved onto smaller groups of teenagers.
I can organise and schedule myself to successfully promote anyone's business or charity on social media and I can even be one of Santa's Elves, if required!
Maybe I'm more organised if I have a defined job to do? A job that I'm passionate about? Perhaps I left my organisational skills behind in the office I left ten years ago, in order to more apply myself to the the most important job that I have ever done. That of being a mum. And I have definitely not been a disorganised mum, of that I am absolutely sure!
So this is where my busy mind has been going lately, and then I read Barbara Scully's piece in the Irish Independent espousing employers to grow up, that 'Middle-aged women are in their prime'! She's right too, in a lot of what she says. Some of us may have stayed home to raise our children and run our homes (I refuse to use the term 'housewife' as I most certainly am not married to my house) but our brains didn't entirely turn to mush in that time. We've kept busy with other things too and a lot of us have also involved ourselves in our children's schools and in our local communities, thereby enhancing our life's experience even more.
We certainly do have a lot of skills to offer.
Maybe I need to get myself back into the paid workforce then? Or perhaps it's enough to remind myself that I can be super organised if I really, really have to be!
I certainly need to calm my busy mind a tad, whilst also keeping both it and my body active. That's life's key I believe. Or a very large component of it.
I may also need to be a little more understanding when my teenage son procrastinates about starting homework/study and any household chores.
He didn't lick it off the stones after all!