The Impatient Patient and the Ten Minute Beauty Walk........
Monday, October 13, 2014
You know, it's only when you look back that you realise how far you've come. And for the times that you want to take a quick peek back, to see exactly how you've felt at a difficult or prominent moment in time, it's then that you realise how good it really is to have a blog. It might even encourage you to continue with it; if you've been having doubts that you can continue, that is.
And I really have been having those thoughts. Maybe after six years of chronologising my life, writing about things I'm passionate about, or sharing some humorous moments, that it's time for me to just, stop.
But, what would I do with my free time?
I had the same thought when I came home from hospital six weeks ago. I'd no idea what I'd do with my suddenly enforced free time, given that I was on one crutch, on controlled medications and forbidden to do a lot of basic housework.
I know, it's a wonderful longed for moment, isn't it? The one where you're told 'no more housework' for some time to come! I mean, there I was during the earlier summer months, lazing in the glorious summer sunshine every chance I got, feeling slightly guilty about the housework I knew needed doing, yet knowing that I absolutely would to do it...... anon. And now here I was with the perfect reason for NOT doing it - while the end-of Summer sunshine still beamed down from above.....
Except, the end-of-Summer now has a distinct cooler, Autumnal feel about it. There's no sitting out in it now that I can, sit that is, but it is lovely to look out at or to brave yourself for a short hop-a-long stroll to the beach! In fairness, it's more of a mixed stroll that starts off with a determined 'look-at-me-power-walking-with one-crutch' look fixed firmly on my face; that ultimately sees me coming home again ten minutes later at a much slower pace, slightly dragging my left leg behind me; like a demented pirate-tress... gone dreadfully wrong!
However it's definitely worth the 'walk' that I do, to be bolstered and renewed by the beauty I see all around me in that ten minutes.....
I guess life on one crutch hasn't been all that bad, not really. It's just so restricting for an active and terribly impatient patient such as myself. I should really just totally embrace this whole 'forget the housework' thing and just relax, get fully better. It's funny really, it's very hard to sit indoors day after day, watching the dust and sheer untidiness build and build, until you fear you may drown in it. So much so that you set yourself tiny little tasks to achieve each day, besides making the meals and while totally sticking to the no hoovering rule!
And so, the last six weeks have passed, with a lot of resting, book reading and with a little spot of knitting and crocheting thrown in for some variety. Of course, I've also had a lot of visitors and some lovely outings too. And I thank my good friend Looking for Blue Sky, for getting me to and from one recent coffee/tea morning reunion!
You'd think with all this free time, in between the above activities that is, there'd be time for some more blogging too, wouldn't you? But, I've been strangely disinclined. I've only blogged when I had something specific to share with you, but nothing in between. I suppose it's to be expected really, given that I'm not out and about experiencing life as much as I had been. And I guess, I just kind of, ran out of things, to say......
Or had ideas of what I might say; little thoughts that would flit through my mind on occasion, only to flitter away again, like a drunken butterfly on a sudden burst of an end-of-summer breeze.
Or maybe the medication has invaded my thoughts too, making them as random as it makes my dreams! Seriously, the dreams while on these meds are totally out there! And using language like 'out there' is absolutely fitting and should plant a firm idea in your head of my nocturnal experiences. I can't even snooze without them invading my mind! I wasn't all that far off with my 'Opiate Disclaimer' in my hospital posts after all!
So here I am, possibly nearing the end of my enforced free-time, as a recent Doctor review might imply. Although there are some much looked forward to events and outings that I have to say no to, until the New year at least. And while there's one not so nice hospital procedure that I soon must have, I can look back through some recent blog entries and really see how far I have come since my hospitalisation.
I really should concentrate on enjoying the remaining free time that my injury has imposed on me, making the most of the opportunity to do more of the sedentary activities I enjoy, rather than focusing on what I'm missing. 'Positive thinking for the recovering injured person', if you like!
Besides, my Doctor has just said 'yes' to driving and to the odd glass of wine!
Now there's progress!
Take care out there....