Never Say Never

I've been very quiet lately, haven't I?

And quite anti-social too. In a social-media kinda way. Although I am slowly gravitating back towards my snuggly little social media niche.

You can rest assured though- it's me, not you.... and I do still care about you all!

I just don't have a lot to say right now, or perhaps I don't know what to say? Which, admittedly, is a new one for me!

I'm finding this phenomena very, very strange. People deal with stuff in different ways and I've long since hailed blogging as being free therapy. Which it is, absolutely, yet right now I find myself pulling away from it.....

Admittedly it has been an emotional roller coaster of a few weeks.

To update, without boring you or being too revealing, the patient continues to confound and baffle the medics. Good for her I say. The Tough Decision was made and the patient returned from whence she came, without much hope.

However, as is her wont, the patient clearly has other plans for herself and is alert and chatting to people at times. Even calling them by name. Put that in your pipe and smoke it, you silly medics!

I am a tad upset that the doctors didn't listen to the possible alternative reasoning for her presentation but, onwards and upwards, as much as is possible.

The situation remains serious but like I say she is such a fighter. We must acknowledge that and patient care must and will be patient led. Part of the dilemma? To feed may cause aspiration (as might ones own saliva) but to not feed will cause starvation. Turns out it's not such a tough decision after all. Not really... not if you let the patient lead you. And you have a team behind you who know her well :-)

In fact it's onwards and upwards on all fronts here, as my horrible three week long cough-from-hell and sleepless nights abate and the Pre-Teen returns to school, all hail and hearty! Finally!

So, we'll continue on this roller coaster ride and see how it all goes. What will be will be...

And we'll have no wallowing in doom and gloom.

I've a nice bottle or two of  Pinot Grigio for that, a perfect wallowing vintage.



  1. I just know you will do a "grand jete "over the curve ball life throws at us, no better woman to do it...keep moving fwd jazzy dance pal x

  2. Just do what you have to do and no more, the blog will wait. Lots of love and strength for the coming months. xxx

  3. @Marymc: Well, I'm just trotting along after you my dance pal! You've done a fair few Grand Jetes of your own in recent times. I'm in awe of you. We'll keep moving forwards together, okay?xx

    @Midlife Singlemum: Thank you, very good advice. It's all I can do really :-)

    Thank you both for your comments, much appreciated :-)

    xx Jazzy

  4. Your Mum sounds like one tough lady, you obviously come from good stock. She sounds a bit like my Granny who had the entire family flying in from all around the world on many occasions when she was very ill, only to rally round again and give out to them all for over-reacting! Don't worry about the blog, I think we all grow in and out of favour with our blogs from time to time. It will be here when you are ready for it.

  5. It is tough having a loved one in ill health. Thinking of you and sending loads of positive vibes. Enjoy your bottle or two! xx

  6. @The mum of all trades: Yes, she does indeed sound like your Granny! And you're right, I'll get back to the blog when I can :-)

    @Bright Side of Life: Thanks, all positive vibes accepted :-)

    Thanks for your comments :-)

    Unfortunately the patient suffered another 'episode' last night. This could be the beginning of the end, Or not. Who knows?

    Please keep her in your prayers and thoughts. Thanks :-)

    xx Jazzy

  7. You are handling this to the best of your abilities, and come across as positive and robust - thinking of you though - this is a very tough time for you. (Ps. I am pretty quiet on the blogging front at the moment - that time of year...)

  8. Thinking of you and I'm struggling with the blog too - so many things I want to write about but can't, and I can't be bothered to write about the things that I CAN write about, well mostly xx

  9. Sounds like it is tough right now, I'll be praying for you, the patient and all affected. Mich x

  10. I am glad the patient is doing OK, I hope you are too. Don't worry about the blog, I think sometimes we all have "quiet patches", and you do sound like you have so much going on right now. xx

  11. @AlongCameTheBird: Thanks, much appreciated.

    @Older Mum: Thanks, trying to keep positive and strong but it is hard at times! Glad I'm not alone on the blogging front!

    @Blue Sky: I know EXACTLY what you mean!

    @Michelle Twin Mum: Thank you...all prayers greatly received:-)

    @BavarianSojourn: yes, there is quite a lot going on alright, don't know which way is up!

    Thanks for all your comments and kind thoughts, they mean a lot.

    Believe it or not my mam came around after her last episode! Unbelievable! She remains in good form , chatting to everyone but is very weak and now has the beginnings of a chest infection. Could this be the beginning of the end? Who knows? I give up at this stage!

    Que sera...

    xx Jazzy

  12. Sorry for your roller coaster ride..I hope that things keep looking up..and that the ride slows down for you for a while..:)

  13. @Kathleen: Things have been looking up for a while now thank god. What will be will be. I didn't think I'd get throught the rehearsals for our show either but almost there!

    Thanks so much for your comment :-)

    xx Jazzy


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